Letting Go

Well, it looks like very soon I will have to relinquish control of the system I built up for three years now. With almost everything in place, I finally have the time to think about what letting this system go means to me.

I spent tons of energy, time, and efforts on this system. I worked 14, 16, 18 hour days, weekends, basically worked until I had to take days off to recuperate so that I could continue. Quite obviously, my health declined in these three years. I never imagine that my next pair of glasses is going to be bi-focal. And when I got sick, I got sick. A one-week cold for me a few years ago would take two weeks.

But I love every minute of development; the camaraderie of my wonderful team members. This is the best jelled team I have had in my career so far. I cherish all of it.

Actually, I thought I would have to keep doing this for another few years, building a great system. I probably would not be as busy, and my health would probably recover much better. I would not know now. I only know that letting it go is the best for me. It is probably best for the team too. I don't know.

This is not the first time I have to let go of a system I built. I am glad that every time that happened, the result had always been good for me. Not so good for the systems left behind, but then that is the essence of letting go: the fate must be decided by the people left behind, by the people who want to continue it, by the people who think they can do better.

I don't know whether I will be building bigger and better things. Actually, my dream is to own a company, so that I have no excuses if it does not do well. Besides, there is no shame in building beautiful small things.

So, so long. I will help in the coming months. But the torch has been passed, symbolically at least, from my hands. My hands are not failing, so they will be working on something else now.